Never before had I really gotten to know a boy my age.
Living in isolation, my only guilty pleasure was reading about them in novels. I daydreamed all the time about what I might have been like to be around a boy my age.
But a lot of crazy things happened since then.
Now, I'm living with a new family in a new home in a new city. Don't get me wrong, the Kaisers are wonderful and all, but sometimes I miss my mother, the one who raised me.
But, I never fell in love with a boy until then.
Ethan and Ilene have a son, Ismus.
He's tall with hazel nut waves and emerald green eyes.
An athletic build, he certainly isn't too bad on the eyes. Plus, he smells so good. I can't describe it, but whenever I'm near him I can't help but get butterflies.
I'm around him so much, It's natural to feel this way, right
Some might say it's obscure, to fall for one's new "brother." But I'm still a teenage girl. I have wants, desires, and feelings like the others.
I haven't been around boys much in my life.
Ismus is the only boy my age I feel close to. He tells me he'll protect me no matter what, which makes my cheeks bright and my heart quick. I feel like one of those girls out of a romance novel.
He's my first love, I can say that with certainty.
Ismus, however, still doesn't know it. Nobody tells their crush they like them, especially when they're your newest step sibling.
I must sit in silence, waiting.
Maybe someday Ismus might love me back. Until then, I'll watch him from a distance, admiring him, hoping one day I'll be able to tell him how I feel.