What's there to wish for,
When I know that I'll never have back what I want?
I don't need any hanging lights or Christmas decor,
To tell the world how much I miss you being gone.
Knowing that you won't be so close anymore,
That you're gone for a long time.
It's hard knowing you won't be there when I knock at your door,
I don't know the next time I'll be happy, but all I know is I won't be fine.
A brother, not by blood,
But by heart.
Even though it's only been five months,
I still can't imagine us so far apart.
I don't know how I'll make it through the new year, or the year after that,
Because it kills me to know that you won't be here.
To the point I don't know if I'll remember when I saw you last,
But what I do know is life won't be the same without you, and having you back is all I want for Christmas this year.