How did I ever forget why I should die Yeah, I know I suck at titles

I almost forgot about all the pain I've caused people I almost forgot why I wanted to die

I wanted to live for a minute I started to wonder why I ever wanted to die for a minute

Then it all came back to me

Then I wondered how I ever forgot about all the pain I've caused

Now that I remember, I wonder why I'm not dead yet

Why am I not suffering in the most painful way?

i'm suffering and I wonder why I ever wanted this pain to go away

I deserve this

I deserve to suffer more than this

I deserve to suffer more than this for a few more years and then die alone in the most painful way