~FALLEN~ *6th Chapter*
~FALLEN~

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*"I want to die." – 6th chapter of the series ~FALLEN~ filled with a lot of pain and showing once more how devastating life is for Angelica.*

~FALLEN~ *6th Chapter*

Content-Warning: – 16+ – Bad Language – Discrimination – Possible triggers like "domestic abuse", "sexual abuse" etc. Be aware: The following content might be too intense for some readers. Please just read if you are ready for it.

Author's Note: 6th Chapter is here with a little survey included. I've realized that this series might become a very long one because of all the ideas I have and because of the story I want to tell. And I'm kinda unsure what to do now.

Author's Note: Here are my questions to you: – Should I just write on and see what happens or should I try to shorten the series? – Are there things you would like to read throughout the story and are there things I should leave out?

Author's Note: – Also, about publishing ... I guess, once a week kinda breaks the flow of the story, doesn't it? Would you like me to publish more often (at least twice a week)? – Do you have other ideas how I could improve the whole reading experience?

Author's Note: Please let me know what you think. And if you'd have other ideas too, please feel free to tell me through the comment section or chat. No matter what, thank you very much for reading and taking the time. I appreciate it a lot.

*6th Chapter*

I want to die.

Trying to push on and think about positive things didn't help anymore. One single thought crossed my mind over and over again and slowly I was succumbing to the killing darkness inside my head. – A devastating torture, I just wanted to escape from.

I want to die.

I wasn't able to deny it anymore and accepted it out of hopelessness: My life had been cruel, my life was cruel and my life would be cruel to the very end. And I was alone with all this devastating burden. And I wasn't able to bear it anymore.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I just can't go on like this anymore.

I want to die.

...

"Wait!" His voice snapped me out of it ..., but just for some seconds. Again I was trapped in the darkest tombs of my soul.

I want to die.

He talked on without really noticing that I was lost in misery and beyond broken and that I didn't really listen to his words. "Are ... Are you okay? – Why did you run off all of a sudden? ... Did I say something wrong?" Worried he wanted to look into my eyes, but I averted my gaze.

I didn't say anything. I wasn't able to say anything. I was paralyzed. But my answer would had been ...

I want to die.

I stood there for a while, staring into empty space, without knowing what to do anymore. My mind was a mess; a firestorm which burned me down from within and consumed the last bits of my fighting spirit.

All I felt was incredible pain at that moment. It felt so unreal yet it was there and didn't grant me a pause, no matter what.

I want to die.

After waiting too long for a response, he suddenly came closer seemingly about to reach out for my hand. "Hey! ... What's the matter?" He really cared about my state ..., but I wasn't able to accept that fact. – It felt so unreal ...

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I screamed out of desperation and agony. And then I hurried away from him.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

The dark thoughts kept on raining like a thousand piercing needles and ripped me apart. And I ran on. I ran on, hoping I would escape from my life; a life no one would wish for even in their worst nightmares.

...

"Where have you been so long, you piece of shit?" Back at "home" – The first words I got to hear from her and which surprisingly didn't hurt that much this time.

"Yeah, I was waiting for your return, Princess." The disgusting man suddenly was behind me and whispered into my ear while grabbing my butt. "After dinner you are coming to my room, you hear?"

I want to die.

"If you hear me, I asked!" He yelled and hit me to the floor. She was giggling like a disturbed demon.

"Y- Y- Yes." I stuttered, while trying to hold back my tears as I remembered how often he already had it with me since I was fifteen.

I want to die.

I don't remember what happened after it.

Maybe everything proceeded like usual ...

I nearly got nothing to eat.

I was insulted and beaten.

He had his way with me.

And then they left me in a dark and unloving room full of horror.

...

I don't remember.

All I knew was ...

I want to die.

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