I Am A Lie

I am a lie.

I put on this persona and

I keep my feelings locked away.

The moment a door opens,

Someone decides not to stay.

They ask, "How are you?"

"I'm okay," I say.

Instead of letting my thoughts spill.

I don't tell them I'm in pain,

Or that I'm slowly becoming numb.

I don't reveal that my will to live

is slowly beginning to fade.

I keep it all inside,

and I lie.

Because I don't want to be alone.

Is that such a bad thing?