Athazagoraphobia
Athazagoraphobia phobia stories
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goldenphoenix
goldenphoenix Death doesn't discriminate
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This is for @astralphoenix and @orcastogether's phobia contest! It starts to sound a bit more optimistic towards the end, I hope that doesn't take away the effect of my phobia

Athazagoraphobia

Athazagoraphobia: The fear of forgetting, being forgotten, ignored, or replaced

That word explains one of my greatest fears

That word explains one of my greatest fears The one that constantly makes me burst into tears

That word explains one of my greatest fears The one that constantly makes me burst into tears Maybe it's just me and my habit of overthinking

Overthinking.

Overthinking..

Overthinking...

Overthinking... The only thing I do

It's what makes me split into two

Because the other side of me feels that there's more being offered to me from life

Because the other side of me feels that there's more being offered to me from life But the other wants to drag me down and isolate myself from others because I felt like I'm living a lie

My fear is eating me slowly, piece by piece as it is not a race

My fear is eating me slowly, piece by piece as it is not a race Being forgotten like the past that everyone wants to erase

Being ignored like the plants that want to grow but couldn’t be showered with love

Being ignored like the plants that want to grow but couldn’t be showered with love Being neglected like the old toys that kids shove into a corner because the new ones are the only one that they speak of

I have people around me that feel like they are doing their best for me

But I'm selfish and I want more because my borders are harder to knock down than just finding something like a key

The borders that were built up so strongly filled up insecurities, disappointments, and fears

Because within these walls that I build, I feel that the only two people left are the Devil, and I

Because within these walls that I build, I feel that the only two people left are the Devil, and I Telling me that it's time to go and die

That I can't be here no longer

That I can't be here no longer Time is up and all will not be any better

That I can't be here no longer Time is up and all will not be any better I give him no reply...

That I can't be here no longer Time is up and all will not be any better I give him no reply... Not because I am shy

But because I have killed my inner self to start anew at least three times already

I'm here, still alive today

I'm here, still alive today Even if I constantly feel the fear of being ignored, it's okay

I'm here, still alive today Even if I constantly feel the fear of being ignored, it's okay There will always be a bay

Filled with people that have no walls

Filled with people that have no walls Where I can feel a sense of belonging, loved, cared and with them, I can stand tall

Although the fear always kicks into my stomach, my face, my soul, and mind

I'll be on my grind Although the fear always kicks into my stomach, my face, my soul, and mind

Because that other part of me is still fighting and believes there's so much more

Because that other part of me is still fighting and believes there's so much more I'll then start myself for being the reason that I will fight for

I'll go against my demon and start a war

As I have stood and roared

Because I'm sick of the walls that restrict not only me but the people who genuinely love me for who I am

That fear that can easily think that it could conquer me, is wrong because I am no simple lamb

Once I have finished my battle

Once I have finished my battle I will then go around and make my words rattle

Hoping that I will one day be able to help others

Hoping that I will one day be able to help others So I can help bring more colors

Into the lives of many, by starting with me sharing my own story

Into the lives of many, by starting with me sharing my own story I want myself and others to not worry

But I don't want to get ahead of myself as I still have a long way to go

But I don't want to get ahead of myself as I still have a long way to go I still need to spiritually and mentally grow and know

But I don't want to get ahead of myself as I still have a long way to go I still need to spiritually and mentally grow and know That as of now, I lift my chin up and smile

But I don't want to get ahead of myself as I still have a long way to go I still need to spiritually and mentally grow and know That as of now, I lift my chin up and smile It's of time that I try to change my lifestyle.

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