Losing the Sense of Being
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This is what it feels like to be raised in an urban area but go to school in a rural area where literally no one understands what ur saying.

Losing the Sense of Being

Identity

Identity I have lost it

Identity I have lost it I no longer know who I am or what self I belong to

Like a body with no being

Like a body with no being Lost in the stars

Like a body with no being Lost in the stars In what we call a galaxy

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I say hello

I say hello It sounds foreign

I say hello It sounds foreign I smile

I say hello It sounds foreign I smile It's a zombie awakening

I say hello It sounds foreign I smile It's a zombie awakening I laugh

I say hello It sounds foreign I smile It's a zombie awakening I laugh It's gilded with cheap gold

I have learnt to fake my accent

I have learnt to fake my accent Till it becomes real

I have learnt to fake my accent Till it becomes real Till you can no longer tell that

I have learnt to fake my accent Till it becomes real Till you can no longer tell that The east end is where my origins lie

I have hidden the slang that came so fluently

I have hidden the slang that came so fluently and destroyed the urban tongue

I have hidden the slang that came so fluently and destroyed the urban tongue that once made residence in my mouth

Everyday I tell myself

Everyday I tell myself This is not who I am

Everyday I tell myself This is not who I am But it seems as if

That's a forced line

That's a forced line Something that's replaying in my mind

That's a forced line Something that's replaying in my mind stuck on repeat

I can no longer identify myself

I can no longer identify myself Whether I am just me

I can no longer identify myself Whether I am just me or an actress starring in a play

Every moment of my life

Every moment of my life feels like a tape running

Every moment of my life feels like a tape running One that will never stop.

Every moment of my life feels like a tape running One that will never stop. Something that I'm trapped in

Every moment of my life feels like a tape running One that will never stop. Something that I'm trapped in that I created.

A monster trying to find her beauty

A monster trying to find her beauty although,

A monster trying to find her beauty although, there is no beauty

A monster trying to find her beauty although, there is no beauty no hope

A monster trying to find her beauty although, there is no beauty no hope and

A monster trying to find her beauty although, there is no beauty no hope and no way out.

Thank you. xo :)

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