Have you ever lost someone you thought you’d spend forever with?
Everything hurts after that
It’s almost as if,
It’s almost as if, you become a little colder after they’re gone
And those 2am texts that are so sweet they sting
Are replayed in your mind because he didn’t mean it,
Are replayed in your mind because he didn’t mean it, right?
And the sun that used to shine on the two of you has turned to thunder
It strikes in your heart whenever you hear his name
Have you ever lost someone you thought you’d love forever?
The last words they ever spoke to you ring in your ears
Because they sound as harsh as they felt
And each time you think about the last kiss you can feel your lips going numb
Dreaming of that lavender taste once more
And you drink and you smoke but it never quite tastes the same
His kiss was a different kind of poison
Have you ever felt so alone that your breath in the cold night is the only thing giving you comfort?
Because it reminds you that you are alive and that you are here
It tells you that you’ve always got yourself
It validates your existence
Even if it is an existence without him
Have you ever felt such things?
Because I no longer