I loved you way more than I could ever love myself. And I know that you loved me too. We both had our issues. I was suicidal. I hurt myself. You were insecure. You got jealous.
You didn't like my friends, because you thought that they were going to take me away from you. And if they were smart, they probably would have.
One of my best friends is a guy. And you hated his guts. You thought that I was going to cheat on you. And you told me everyday that you knew that I was going to cheat on you.
Why did you think that it was ok to tell me that I couldn't be friends with people just because they are the opposite gender? Why did you think that it was ok to tell me that I was untrustworthy?
You tell me that I shouldn't make jokes with my friends, because you think that they are about you. They aren't. And yet you make jokes about me and my body all the time to your friends.
No, I'm not going to give up the very few friends that I have for you. You don't seem to mind when I talk to or hang out with YOUR friends. How come my friends are different?
You got mad at me because I went to the mall with my two best guy friends. You told me that none of my friends are trustworthy. You got mad at me because I didn't tell you that I was going.
You told me that my problems are nothing because yours are worse. This is my life, and I don't need someone telling me what to do. I'm in highschool, I don't need someone controlling my life.
I'm not cheating on you. I have nothing to hide. You do not need to control me. I am my own person. And I will not be part of an abusive and controlling relationship.
And so I am giving you an option.
We can change our relationship and go back to the loving, caring one we had before jealousy and insecurities meddled its way in. Or we can take a break. I don't like that idea any more than you.
But maybe this is what we need.
It wasn't always this way.
We used to be so happy. We never used to fight. What changed? I miss those times. I miss us. Can we please go back to that? I love you so much.