I want to write,write what I have felt and what I am feeling. what if i tell someone how bad i am feeling. All in vein because no one will understand me. no one is suffering the way I am suffering
I want to escape from everything around me and everyone around me.
i feel the race I am running in is useless because everyone is too much ahead of me. what if I keep on running and see that there is no one on the other hand.
I am at a point where I even don't know that which way to choose. Whether the way I have chosen will lead me to somewhere or despite running, running and running,i will reach no where.
whether this path will end someday or I will keep on running forever without reaching somewhere. I am running in a race which is actually not my race,I dont belong here. I don't belong anywhere. I have lost the sight.
What if I just sit still and don't move because there is no way,there is no hope,there is no motivation but I think that I should keep on walking maybe I reach somewhere. but what if I hope to reach somewhere and in the end I don't reach anywhere.
My hopes will be shattered I will be broken. i will find myself again in that valley of darkness and despair where I think that I will never be able to escape again. what if I have again reached in that valley of darkness. why I am again in that valley.
I want someone to read all my writing and understand what I was going through at that time.