I meant to write this last night, but I forced myself to fall asleep instead.
Because I'd rather be awake at school, not asleep and inside my head.
I'll admit that I love my dreams, the one place where I can be with you.
But I also dread my dreams, for the same reason that I love them too.
Because if I can see you in my dreams,
I wake up with only a desire to scream.
Because you're not here by my side,
You're many miles away.
Too many. I'd say.
Sometimes I want to hit up Facebook, Commaful, and Reddit too.
I want to scream it from the rooftops and tell the world how I feel about you.
Everyone else is so quick to judge when they see me.
But I'd beg to differ with them as they don't see ME.
They see someone who they fabricate with their mind,
But they seal their fate then because they won't ever find,
Who I am inside, not out,
Skin deep is not what I'm about.
But you my dear, are different,
You see me but you also see ME.
You see everything I am, and all that I wish we could be.
I'm glad you can see me, and understand me too.
That's why I'm proud to say that I'm in love with you.
You're pretty, and beautiful, not just physically but inside too.
Despite your constant complaints that beauty is not a word that matches you.
I'll just let you remember then,
I care more for who one is than what they are,
And that's why I sometimes wish I could just hop inside a car.
I could disappear across the country,
Or just disappear from town.
I want to be invisible, be able to disappear from here,
If only to be there and hold you in my arms.
I swear I'll yell it to the rooftops, my love for you, my dear.
But only if you tell me yes. Because premature discovery is something that you fear.
I'll simply say then, I love you. And that is not changing, dear.
And I'll once again remind you, that you deserve all of this, so make sure you calm your fears.