I'm not tired.
Sleep is nowhere to be found.
But as I lay here, I can think of endless dreams abound.
I've always dreamt of love, never though a girl that I could see,
I've always been chasing shadows, wondering who she could be.
I dreamt last night of something, that gave my slow heart quite a lurch,
For I dreamt of a future where love keeps, and stays pure and ceases the search,
I was happy there in the future, the girl that I had was grand,
I always treated her gently, and like a gentleman, I took her hand.
I dreamt of a future where I was happy, something I thought long ago bland.
I assumed that it was stale to be happy, always looking for some promised land.
Land in the heart for a love to grow, where opening up was enough.
I thought I had made myself empty, but this dream for sure called my bluff.
She said I'm glad that I met you, the time we waited was really just rough,
She said that with me she was happy, even though I'm not jacked up and buff.
I'm just myself and a writer, I try to be everyone else too.
But i realized they're not my Identity, and nothing but me will do.
I'm beaten and bent but not broken, a shell of a boy with the core of a man,
I stood and fought for my hope then, in a place where others had ran.
I remember I said, "my dear if you'll have me, I'll make any sacrifice for you."
She smiled and kissed me softly, "but Ty, you've paid your dues."
I hugged her as the dream faded, I awoke grasping for strings with my hands.
And now I sit waiting and watching, I'm counting down every drop of those sands.
It's 3:24 now, still no sleep, which is quite pleasing.
But this is sleep I need here, this moment is for seizing.
Goodnight my future love, may something watch us from above,
But you don't love me yet, so it's something I'll wait until I get.
But should you fall for another my love, go ahead, love them, I'll find my own, there's a plan in this universe I'm part of.