Life isn't perfect
My life, my parents,my family, my friends nothing makes sense sometimes. Hell even i don't make sense more than many times, nothing's perfect. I'M NOT PERFECT
That my mother doesn’t love me for me
I wish I was more girly,more into clothing, more skinny, more like my friends - so my mother could love me instead of reminding me how ugly i was every chance she got.
My friends don’t get me always
No matter how more of a family my friends are to me,sometimes they don’t get me. It sucks when you know them better than them, and they don't.
Im not good at words
Maybe if I was more of a sharer, my life would have been easier.But its not me I can't express my emotions, thats why everyone thinks im rude and insensitive, sadly including my friends.
Im not perfect
Im not “beautiful”, im more like a menlike when it comes to manners, cleanliness and lifestyle. which makes my mother wonder who's gonna marry me, as if my life's aim is to just marry.
Im insecure,Im not confident
I hate it that inspite of being that one person who tell everyone to be secure in themselves, their body,I myself have insecurities, my body to the way I speak to me being a 20 year old soul.
And most of all-I killed my inner child
always being picked up for ur appearance makes u believe them. i never could enjoy any games coz i was too scared to crush my friends. and i wasnt even obese just chubby. so i stopped playing