My mind’s aching because you chose her and no matter what I do, I could never compare with such a beauty.
She’s beautiful, yes. But is it everything you care about, really?
She can see beautiful things in the world as I do and she might be a suicidal kid as I am
But she’s clearly dumb and even though you prefer her.
But that’s not the saddest part. The saddest and most painful part is that considering that you chose her, you’re stupid too.
And considering that I want you, I’m an idiot.
I want my happy ending. I want to stop comparing myself and hating everything I see on my mirror.
I want freedom and I want beauty. Not just from words.. I want to be, for at least once, desired. By you.
But oh, I just remembered everything you say and how badly you hurt me.
Just get away, get away, get out of my head. I want you, I hate you. Come closer, leave me alone.
Please just stop it. Please stop it.