i thought i had fucked up again
telling you to up and leave when i had wanted you to stay
but then you made it so obvious that i didn't need you in the first place
at first it was amusing, watching you from afar, looking jaded and confused
you were so alone.
you still are so alone
even with someone else,
i know you're still lonely.
i would never lie to you though, i get lonely too
i can't help it
you're still not for me and i know it
but the difference between you and i is that i know how to be alone
and enjoy the beauty that is my own solidarity
of being alone
but never feeling lonely