5 years had passed since I met you, Ma. Italy is a beautiful place. The Colosseum, the pizza, the opera, football, and Rome in itself is so majestic that I could not think to part from them.
But Ma, in these last days of my life, their beauty is unable to hold my heart anymore. I am infected with Corona virus and I will die soon.
I know it will break your heart Ma. But, promise me you will not cry. Before my death, I want to confess something.
When I felt ill at the age of twenty, and was about to die, I felt the same desire. I wanted to thank you then, but never got time. Let me say it today--THANK YOU, MA.
Thank you for being there with me the whole time.
You know Ma, when I eloped with Sangmin five years ago, I wanted to see you before leaving. When father didn't allow me to meet you, I was standing the whole night outside our house.
I wanted to see you one last time. You never came. I HATED YOU for that.
But Ma, I know that you were standing at the threshold that night waiting for me to open the door and come inside. I too wanted to hug you, but I didn't have the courage. I AM SORRY, MA.
I broke our dream. I lied. Instead of staying with you, I eloped with Sangmin. But Ma, I still don't regret. He is wonderful. I love him, Ma.
Three years ago, when Sia was born, I MISSED YOU A LOT. I wished you could be by my side. I wanted to show her innocent face to you. She is like you. Seeing her make me miss you more Ma.
And today, when I am writing you, I WANT TO BE BORN AGAIN AS YOUR DAUGHTER. I want to eat again all those tasty food you make. I want to sleep in your lap. I want to go shopping again with you.
I want to visit our aunts together. I want to fight with the neighbours with you. I want to laugh and cry with you.
I want to live my childhood again, Ma. I want to live those memories--the time I spent with you again and again.
Can time freeze or stop? No, it can't. So just by writing to you, I am happy. I can't hug you, but I am writing out my heart for you. I will love you Ma always.
I HAVE LITTLE TIME SO, GOOD BYE MA.