How..

How... how does it feel to be stuck between yourself like being pressed between two walls, my head and my heart.

My emotions can't stay intact.

The things I remember, the pain ive been through it doesn't go away even if it seems its vanished,

I still feel it's presence haunting Me in my dreams and My thoughts it doesn't stop even if I try.

When will it end I dont know... it hurts still and the reminders don't help, I dont wanna lose you but I dont even know my own mind anymore.. my knocks and screams are never heard.