Instead of racing with my classmates and childhood friends, I naively raced for the adult life
Instead of taking naps and long nightly dreams, I yelled and screamed for the adult curfew
All in the hopes of growing up.
All of my free childhood time wasted on the fruitless future
And now I waste my tightly packed time daydreaming of freedom.
I drown my body in caffeine so I could keep up with the adult life
And filled my mind with books and words, in hopes of not failing another worthless examination
The crippling fear tips my mind and I lose my adult reasoning
Lies and deception were the beginning, artificial promises, and vacant dreams were the end .
Oh, what I would do to just be a child again
To forget my worries and fears and sleep in my mother's sheltered bed.
To have her stroke my hair and embrace me closely, while I innocently sleep and foolishly dream.
To trade my worldly knowledge for a game of hide and seek
To take my wasted childhood back and forget the adult dream