how difficult it is to explain anxiety to those who don't understand,
it's like losing yourself with no one offering you comfort or a helping hand
it's like broken glass has entered deep inside of your heart
its like the world is trying its best to break you all apart
i sit alone outside and i always wonder why
why was i given the qualities that make me want to cry.
constantly afraid of life, this isn't how i want to be
so why God, why, did this have to happen to me.
every time i think i'm doing fine i take myself off meds
then soon enough i'm breaking down with all these thoughts inside my head.
a rush of emotion and i'm headed for the door,
heading for a place where i can cry alone on the floor.
i see my friends have fun as i miss out on fun events
but the anxiety that comes with going out is not equivalent.
I'll be fine one moment, still the next...
then suddenly I'm shaking into a nervous wreck
I feel overwhelmed with emotion, not knowing how to breathe
i feel the walls come closing in and crashing down on me
sometimes all i want is someone to tell me it'll be okay
but no one understands anxiety, everyone looks the other way.
depression and sadness often come with anxiety too
which it all overwhelms me and i'm left not knowing a single thing to do.
anxiety isn't easy, anxiety is no where close to fun
but understand when feeling anxious, you are not the only one
anxiety does not define you, you are much more than the sadness you feel
with time it will get easier, with time you will heal.
I constantly reassure myself that everything will be okay
because even with anxiety, theres still pure beauty in each day.