Why is this me
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coolbeans0321
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Is it my inability to rhyme as to why I can’t stand myself? I look in the mirror and I don’t see me but a monster in its place

Why is this me

Is it my inability to rhyme as to why I can’t stand myself?

I look in the mirror and I don’t see me but a monster in its place

A selfish loathing monster with scarceness of light

I step back and it becomes a blurred reflection

My eyesight is gone, and I no longer can see what’s truly around me

Only the fog of my own self-pity looms over

Is it because I can never stay true to myself?

And constantly change like water only to remain a blob of continuing confusion within myself

Is it because I can never write good songs because I never know what I’m feeling?

So, I make something up only to feel guilty as if I’m lying

Only for what I made to change within a matter of seconds because it never was true

I am only a plastic version of myself unable to truly express me

I know who I am

But I have no idea what is inside of me

Why am I a person of such weakness that I can never say how I feel

I don’t understand why I am like this and neither does anyone else

It only puts my mental state as a burden to my mother

The fear looms over that ill end up like my father

Selfish, unloving, unworthy of anything good

I just want to do good

I want to do the right thing

Why does it seem so hard to keep my head on when I know my mind is in the right direction

I can never follow through with my thoughts

I can’t make sense

Is this why I can’t stand me

Is this why you can’t stand me

I’m so plain

I am but rubble on the bottom of one’s shoe

I am swine

I want to prove myself, but it would never be good enough for you

The lingering doubt of trying but not succeeding

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