Painless
Painless redemption stories
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cjhale
cjhaleAspiring musician Charlotte Hale.
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This it what I suffer. This is the pain I can't feel. This is my painless pain.

Painless

By CJ Hale

Sometimes I swear I can't feel anything.

And it scares me.

But somewhere in the corners of my being a storm is brewing.

And I know I can't control it.

It builds. And I need a release.

I need to feel something. Something that will wake me up.

Emotion surges, and it consumes me.

Pain. It takes me over, and I can't stop it, and I feel, slimy in my own skin.

The truth is, I'll never be good enough, and truth hurts.

And I need the pain to go away.

And the pain escapes when I place the razor to my wrist,

And cut.

And the mental pain escapes me, and the physical takes over.

But I feel, better...like I've finally gotten what I deserved, and rid myself of the nagging voice in the back of my mind.

And then I realize what I've done.

And again I feel disgusting in my own body, but I don't know how else to deal with this pain.

So I blind myself to the havoc I've wreaked upon my body.

And I let the painful cycle begin again. And I can feel my soul being chipped away, and I lose myself in painless pain.

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