Everytime I think of you,I wonder how my life would be.
I remember how you made me act so foolish and spontaneous because that's the way you were.
You made me want to grab every part of your soul and flip it around.
You made me laugh louder than your grandma's old radio.
You made me talk to you for hours until my lips were swollen and dry.
You made me love you.
Oh, the things you did to my inner self.
That personality who wouldn't let it's feelings go out or any further.
Yes,I admit it's mine.
And everytime I think of you I'm so glad, that what we had was worth it.It was like a fairytale but with a sad ending.
I crave for the times I remember you.
When I hear the word love,your name immediately comes on my mind.
When I feel rain falling on top of my skin,I remember your light-feathered kisses.
When I hear soundtracks from old movies,I remember the thrill of your voice.
A new era had come for you,long time ago.
A new era,where you were to be happy.
Where you were to express your own feelings.Where you were not to help others.
This era,still feels like a dream for many.A dream that many can't follow.
I'm not sad.I can still remember how you looked,how wonderful your scent was,how your body traveled through mine.I'm not sad,I'm just miserable,miserable for all the wrong choices I took.
We could escape from reality just like you told me ,but my closed mind decided to let you go.Decided to move on.Just like that.
My soul is being punished for my cold actions and I regret for every one of them.I regret for giving you fake smiles,for making you feel less important,less loved.
''I'm sorry''I sing every night to the God you believed.
''I'm sorry baby''I scream for the times you aren't there.
''I'm sorry I let you go''I say from my insides,because I am too ashamed to say the reason I lost you.
''I'm sorry I gave up the new era''I am still saying until the day I die.