The Satisfaction of Sanity

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san·i·ty (noun)
the ability to think and behave in a normal and rational manner; sound mental health.

The gifs are from the To This Day Project by Shane Koyczan. Go watch his video; the poem he wrote is breathtaking!

The Satisfaction of Sanity

by Caroline Prank

How am I sane?

The colors running up my veins, like salmon up the river, only to die at the very top.

I live through my note-taking palms, the memorization,

And a textbook case of disassociation. These keep me afloat over the sea of anxieties. Wait, that's an overused rhyme, I'm sorry.

I don't believe in my own ability to say,

so I whisper the words of the women writing my PowerPoints.

Like a mantra for the dead, I rise again each morning,

to the dark lights of my sanity screaming for release, like the whore between the sheets. There's no satisfaction, but the money I get selling myself out.

Is my sanity even speaking when I'm too far gone to hear it?

Like trees in forests, and kids in hallways, the unheard is misrepresented in its absence. My sanity with those above, it's mumbling delusions into my ear, a drunk man's ballad.

I trust I can tell the fact and fiction apart,

but a part of me says that, if it's my sanity that's lying to me, I should really just turn over and go back to sleep.

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therinamartinsSilver CommaWriter and Friend
a year agoReply
@carolineprancke :-)

a year agoReply
@therinamartins Wow thank you so much for looking at my poem! I really love your work!! I will do my absolute best to keep writing as much as I can.

a year agoReply
@bernardtwindwil Thank you so much!It took a while to be able to word how I was feeling, at the time, and I was so worried it wasn't clear so this comment made me feel much better.

therinamartinsSilver CommaWriter and Friend
a year agoReply
With the visuals and your amazing style, I'm sure you'll go far. Just keep going and never lose hope. You've got talent, I give you that. Be brabravece and don't be worried by your progress. Be yourself and write more great poems like this one.

bernardtwindwilGold CommaGranddad & story teller,
a year agoReply
This was so well thought out it brought me right into the middle of this poor persons quandry. This was fantastic. The thing is that it kept getting better.

a year agoReply
@pops thank you!!

a year agoReply
wowww amazing!!!