She is a bold, beautiful and charismatic woman. Her walk is majestic and her talk is simple and down-to-earth.
I bumped into her near the pantry and asked her "can we talk?". Off we stride for a quick smoke, exchanging awkward glances on our way. As we lit our smoke, I said "I think I like you".
Shocked, she asked "uh, what do you mean? As a mentor? Friend? Do you want to date?" And I reply "I don't know, can I have your number?"
All I knew was her name. That evening I looked her up on professional social media and it said 'Ms.
Blake joined the company 19 years before you did'- wait, what??
I approached an Executive, 20 years more experienced than I am, and told her that I like her!
My brain kept telling me I'm going to get fired, my heart kept telling me that life is short, I did the right thing! My friends kept telling me "damn, she is going to think you are gay!!
" Yes, I'm 27 years young woman battling mid-life crisis and I approached a 46 year young woman executive at work because I found her extremely attractive
Days passed, I put my head down in shame whenever I saw her. Almost two weeks later, I entered the building after a smoke and saw her engrossed in a conversation with someone.
Our eyes met, I gave an awkward smile and ran in the opposite direction! Then I went on vacation for two weeks, a Euro trip with the guy I was seeing that time.
It was an amazing trip with lot of romantic moments, exquisite dinner and stay and lot of intense sex! Agh, I knew I was falling in love with him!
I came back to work, rejuvenated and calm, and bumped into her at the hallway.
Again, an awkward hi, but she was having a big smile on her face! I could clearly read that she missed this stupid stalker! I got shy and walked away.
We bumped into each other quite often and our eyes would literally lock for 5 seconds and exchanged shy smiles.
What's happening to me? Is it all in my mind or are things actually happening? I started to linger near her office and she would come out quite often and give me a warm and happy smile.
My best friend at work noticed it pretty quick and asked me what's going on. I denied everything.
One day during lunch I saw her walk toward a restaurant to grab food. While coming back she was limping. I was skeptical to approach and ask her if she was okay.
I just went back to my desk and then two hours later, came down for a smoke. She was sitting there, so beautiful and charming, texting and waiting for someone.
A car stopped by, she got up and limped toward the car. A gentleman steps out and scooped her into the car. My heart was sinking.
I wasn't sure if it was because she was hurt or some DUDE stepped out and scooped her into the car. I couldn't be more depressed, I started thinking maybe it was all in my mind..
months passed and I never saw her at work.. Maybe she had someone in her life and she never felt anything toward me.. I decided to move on and remove all emotional feelings I had for her.
I diverted all the attention toward my boyfriend. We moved into a new apartment together and I tell him about this, he listens with dedication and explains that office crush is very common.
Even today things are awkward between us. I see her in the hallway everything comes back gushing and I start to feel my tongue when I talk to her.
Recently I had an injury and never went to work for few weeks. She stopped me to ask what happened.
My heart raced to 110 bpm and my Apple Watch goes "Looks like you are working out"!
Everything around me stops and I see her beautiful eyes looking right into my gawking eyes and she goes "good to see you back at work".
Should I say my day was made? She noticed I wasn't coming to work for two months? Does she like me too? I will never know...