I am truly sorry for the pain I caused
Sorry for being a jerk, a liar and most importantly not being a good boyfriend that you actually deserved.
Eleanor, I miss you every fucking day. You could have given me a chance.
But what you did was right, people like me don't stand a chance.
I remember all the things we did but what really hit me hard was you stayed - all long.
When I think about starting over, I feel guilty.
If I wasn't a good boyfriend to you then how come would I be to the other girls?
I don't want to ruin their lives with my jerkface attitude.
You are not any ordinary girl, Eleanor.
You have a beauty in seeing the good in the broken.
I'm sorry because of me you took your life.
You didn't deserve any of this.
I love you.
I'll keep on loving you because you are the girl a boy could never stop loving.
Your voice is stuck in my head, those fights we had all of them went down the water.
I'm sorry I couldn't show the love I had for you.
But now I regret, I should have shown you when I had the chance.
I'm just living my life waiting for Karma to happen, if that's the only way.