It's easy to breakdown.
You know what is hard?
That first tear falling.
That tear which you struggle not to release
That tear which contains everything
That first tear.
Unlocking the pandora box of feelings
Shaking your core, your chest, your lips
The first tear is the most painful one.
The key to healing,
All of it in the dark of your room.
Struggling to breathe quietly.
To not let anyone know you're shedding
Your shield from emotions
Barring your heart of hearts
To the night.
Tonight is a darker one.
Mistakes in their masks torment.
Uncertainty and loneliness clear as day
Ready to swallow you whole.
Kept doing something wrong
Now its here to say hello
Shuddering breaths as you tell your self you are ok.