I wake up in a room in the dark, alone. I go through my day alone.
There are other people there too of course. I am a teenager living with my parents.
However, I am the only one drowning in my mind all hours of the day. In my mind and body, I am alone...
But even then there are certain people who help me feel less alone.
Some people help make me feel like I'm not drowning but floating. Teetering between the edge of panic and comfort.
While it would be optimal to swim comfortably, for now, floating is just fine for me.