How could I forget about you? I don't know what I'd do without you.
Lonely sunsets without my princess.
Send me 1 text so I can get some rest.
Lyrics that once melted my heart.
When you sent me that 1 text. I forgot all the rest.
I'm trying to move on from all of our pain, your pain and my pain.
I lifted you up during the times you couldn't see anything but darkness.
You saved me in a way.
From all of the things I was trying to run from.
You were my new drug. And I was addicted.
And I'm still chasing the beautiful boy that told me I was beautiful.
I know it's not our time anymore. We both do.
I'm still in love with you.
I go back and forth constantly.
I love him so much it hurts, how can I be without him?
I hate him for all of the scars and tears he has caused me.
It's a battle that I deal with everyday that we are tangled up in this cycle.
You only want me when I can serve a purpose in your life.
I'm always searching for you.
You always run away.
Then come back after I've already hit the ground from the pain.
You constantly made all of the promises I wanted to hear.
That night you came to my house at 12am.
You knocked on my window.
We hadn't talked in weeks and it felt like home when I saw you.
That's the moment I should have left.
The moment I knew you were gonna fuck up my world again, leave me again.
You were my world.
All I saw.
And now here I am... almost 3 years later.
3 years of my life, dedicated to you and all of your demons.
I put myself through the depths of hell, or what it felt like, to love you.
To save you.
To make sure your knew in your heart that you were loved.
That's all I ever wanted.
You to know you weren't alone.
Because there's been so many times where I've felt alone.
But I'm tired.
I'm not ever going to be the one for you.
Forever is not what's in our future.
No matter how badly I want it.
No matter how many times I dream about it.
My life sucks without you rn.
I miss everything I love about you.
But I don't miss the things that still haunt me.
I know this is the end of us.
I have to be the one who's going to have to be strong.
I won't return when you come looking for me.
I won't even look back.
I'm going to hear your voice or see that call and remember the last words you told me.
You're not worth it to change.
That's all I remember.
I heard my heart break in that moment.
My mind going into the "what if's?"
What could I have done better?
What if I was this... or this...
I have to let you go.
No matter what my heart is saying.
My mind can't take anymore.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Don't forget about me.
Don't forget about us.
I'll have to love you from a distance since I can't love you up close.
I just want you to know...