These past 8 months you've been somewhat of a muse to me. You've made me want to be better, you've made me want to write more, bust mostly you've made me happy. This, of course, terrifies me.
You see, my friends have a nickname for me and I hate it. They call me 'the 2 monther" because that's how long I date someone before breaking up with them. Call it an unlucky streak.
I can talk to the person for 5 months, 3 months, 1 year but once we become official my timer starts.
I don't know what it is or why it takes a label for me to start my countdown all I know is I don't want it to start with you. I feel different with you. Not like I did with anyone in the past.
I don't know what it is but i've never wanted to keep things unofficial with someone more.
In the past i've been eager to call a boy mine but with you i'm afraid it will end sooner than I'd like. In fact, I don't want it to end at all which is why i'm so petrified to start it at all.
My past is haunting me but I love you. Will you break my unlucky streak or be my strongest bad luck charm yet?