My happiness depends on a pill
If I miss a day, I lose a day to my thoughts
My terrible terrible thoughts
Its sad really. And ironic
I take these pills to feel better
And when I remember I have to take pills to feel ok it makes me sad
Am I taking the pill because I take the pill?
But i'm reminded thats not the case when I miss a day.
Im good at hiding it. So good that my own mom thinks I am doing better
I don't have the heart to tell her i'm not
Nor do I have the heart to tell my friends
And I never will
So I keep taking these pills in hopes of one day not needing to
But taking these pills only makes me terribly sad that I take them
And so the cycle continues