To whom it may concern,
I always try to live outspoken and never hold anything in, but these are words I just couldn't say. Maybe one day.
I love you. Unconditionally. Forever. Always. Anyway you put it. I love you. I can't help it. You lied twice and I have zero tolerance for liars but with you I just can't help it. I miss you.
You were my best friend. It was always so complicated with us though. We always wondered "what if". We were each others "the one that got away". I love Eric but I will still always love you too.
I hope one day we reconnect, even though I pushed you away, so maybe I can tell you these things I never said.
I love you. I have loved you since day two. I think you might be my one but I'm afraid. I've never been able to commit to someone for a long period of time.
Maybe it's because I've had my heart broken or maybe it's because i'm afraid i'll break yours. Im so petrified of you it consumes you. Well, scratch that. I'm petrified of losing you.
Please never leave me so that one day I can tell you these things I haven't said.
You we're one of my best friends. I can't say you were my #1 because Austin had that place but you were my best friend for 8 years.
I remember walking in late to science class in 6th grade and scanning the room for someone I knew. I barely knew you but it was my first day of middle school so I reached out to you.
I whispered, "Stephanie... Stephanie!" You turned around and gave me the attention I was looking for. We became inseparable. I miss you.
How could I not? You hurt me though and unfortunately it turns out my love for you wasn't unconditional.
I wish you the best and maybe one day I'll tell you that but for now these remain things I never said.
I'm sorry. I know it probably means nothing to you now but I broke your heart. I think about it everytime I see a hockey game or pass a zaxbys. I was young and dumb.
I'll never forgive myself even if you have forgiven me because even though it was so long ago I still broke your heart and one of the things I never said was sorry.