I hate that I let you treat me this way.
I excused the long term results
For a short term feeling.
You made me feel beautiful,
Yet disgusted with myself
At the same time.
I opened up to you-
Told you things no one else knew.
I handed my heart to you.
The way you held my hand,
Rest your head on my shoulder,
Kiss me with no opposition.
I should have known not to fall for you.
Call me color blind,
Because I could not see the red flags.
I know that I am only seventeen,
But my heart is broken.
The pain running vivid in my veins.
Tears have never fallen
So quickly from my eyes.
My cheeks are stained with acid rain.
I have a heaviness in my chest as I write,
My heart tearing
At the thought of how naive I was.
New walls have been built,
My heart guarded with armed soldiers.
They will take armies to break down.
I don't think
I have hated myself this much
Until you called yourself emotionally unavailable.