Dear Depression and Anxiety,
You're the reason I'm always scared to try something new. You're the reason I'm to scared to talk to new people.
You're the reason I hate getting out of bed, and sleep a lot more than somebody normally would.
It's thanks to you that I can't hold a relationship because I feel that I'm causing to much trouble for the other person. It's because of you that I over think even the tiniest thing.
It's because of you that I don't sleep at night, then sleep till 1 in the afternoon. It's because of you I always look tired, and that's how I play it off and hide you.
It's because of you that I lose everyone. It's because of you that I'm scared to even truly be myself. Sure I can hide you from other people, but I can't hide you from me.
You know what though? Everyday I wakeup and get out of bed, I beat you. Everyday I'm able to go to work and talk to my co workers and enjoy my day, I beat you.
Everyday I laugh at a joke and I smile, I beat you. When I see even the tiniest thing I like about myself, I beat you.
Sure you may be winning this battle, but as long as I can do these things and beat you, I'll win the war. I'm not scared of you, but one day you won't ever have a chance of winning.
On that day, we'll declare this fight over, with me on top as the winner. You may have stopped me from writing for about 7 years, but I'm back to it, and that's how I'll win.