After school, I met Kayd at his locker and we walked to his place. It had become our routine. I crept up behind him while he was looking for something in his locker.
Looking around to make sure the hallway was empty, I silently got closer, and propped my chin onto his shoulder. Not realising I was there, he froze and went rigid. "Boo."
I smiled, pressing the corner of my mouth against his cheek and wrapping my arms around him from behind. He is quite literaly the most comfortable thing ever.
I, on the other hand, am constantly cold so I had no problem stealing his body heat by happily kissing him on the cheek and stepping closer, locking my arms around him.
He rolled his blue eyes and turned so that he was facing me. "Are you using me as a heater again?" He asked sarcastcly, putting his hands on the bottom of my rib cage and pulling torwards him.
"Yes." I nodded. "Glad we're on the same page." He smiled, which made me blush and him laugh. "Here, this might be slightly more effective." He pulled off his varsity jacket and handed it to me.
I stared at him quizicaly and said, "I'm gonna drown in this." He shrugged, pulling me in quickly for a kiss. I slipped on the sweater, which was huge on me just as I had predicted.
Which is weird because I'm not that much shorter then him. Kayd laughed at the fabric loosely hanging off of me and slung his bag over his shoulder.
"Okay, you ready?" I nodded and we walked back to his place, running over our usual questions. As always Kayd slung his arm over my shoulders and I slid my arm his waist.
The fact that I was able to do this without the blood rushing to my face was progress. "Did you eat?" He asked, poking my stomach. I rolled my eyes again and nodded. "Yes, yes I did.
I rather not have you staring at me as I eat lunch." He nodded happily, kissing me on the forehead. "Hey, imma do what I gotta do to keep you alive." He was overexagerating...or so I thought.
Honestly the band forcing me to eat dinner with them and him insisting that I eat was the only thing stopping me from loosing more weight. Then it was my turn.
"Did you talk to Allison?" He nodded grimly, pulling me closer to him for comfort. Even before we datef he had a habit of pulling me against him.
I still remember when we were playing spin the bottle, a room full of girls, and when he got to choose he said me as a 'joke'. Then pulled me aside and kissed me on the lips before I could say anything. (Comment if you wanna read that because like what di you have better to do? (Jk))
We walked inside his house, dropped our bags on the floor, and he pulled me to the couch. "Yeah...she still seems to think I'm going to be with her."
He pulled me over, burrying his forhead in the crook of my neck. I bit my tongue to keep from saying something rash and sat down next to him. Kayd sighed for a moment then said, "Nah.
Let's go upstairs, couch is too small." I raised an eye, shoving my hands in my pockets and he seemed confused. "What? You know I need to have a good cuddle to keep my chemicle levels stable."
I laughed at the dead serious look he gave me and went upstairs with him. That's Kayd for you, the guy loves hugs.
Lying down on his bed, I turned onto my side, as did, he so we were looking at eachother. I couldn't help but smile staring at his face as he lifted his hand and rested it on my cheek.
"But don't worry about Allison." He said softly, lifting his hand and putting his fingers through my hair. Leaning forward, he pressed his lips against mine and smiled.
"If she doesn't give up on trying to get me with her, it doesn't make a difference. It's not like it'll change anything for us." I nodded, knowing he meant that. "Trist..."
He trailed off, seeming uncomfortable. "What's wrong?" I asked quickly. He looked at me before lying on his back and staring at the ceiling."I know that a lot of my exes have been talking to you...and uh.
" He looked way, way too uncomfortable. Shoving his hands in his pockets and looking at the window, avoiding my gaze he continued.
"Listen I know that they say things like I only get into relationships for the physical aspect but." He stopped there, turning back to me. I sat there for a few moments before raising an eye.
"Kayd-" I sighed, resting my head on his chest and drapping my arm over his torso. He wrapped his arm around me, resting it on my shoulder.
I swallowed my spit, trying to figure out how to say this. "I'm sorry but...you know I'm not ready for that yet." And honestly that scared me. (I LOVE THIS PHOTO)
I did know that Kayd had slept with more people then I could count and I also knew I just wasn't ready to do that with him yet.
The idea that Kayd could get bored of me and leave me because I wasn't ready to do that with him was nagging at the back of my mind.
I looked away from him, staring at the wall to my right, and winced as he sat up. That was a habit I develloped after what happened to my ex, and when he discovered it without knowing why he had thought I was scared of him or something. I still remember his reaction.
"Trist no-" Kayd grabbed my hand and chin, turning my face so I was looking at him. He stared at me in surprise with wide eyes and leaned over me, kissing me firmly on the lips then pulling back.
"Not what I meant, at all. I'm saying the opposite. I know you're not ready for that with me yet." He squeezed my hand and let go of my face, resting his hand on my waist.
"And I'm okay with that. And I'm willing to wait that doesn't bother me, what I'm trying to say is-" His voice faltered and he sighed, looking down.
"I don't want you thinking I'm only with you for sex. Honestly you're the first person I'm with where that hasn't been on my mind." He said quickly. "I just want to make sure you know that.
I, I really like you Trist." He lifted his hand brushing my hair out of the sid eof my face and giving me a pleading look. "Please don't think I'm only with you because of that.
I promise you, I'm not. You know me better then anyone so please tell me you know I'm not lying when I say this." I sat there dumb founded for a moment. My god Iove him.
Next I knew I was leaning over him, pressing my lips against his then wrapping my arms around him. "Of course I do Kayd." I promissed, burrying my face into his shoulder.
"And I'm sorry that I'm not ready yet but-" "No, babe that's the point don't be!" He wrapped his arms tightly around me, pulling me against him.
"There's no rush! Look Trist, we haven't even said we love eachother yet. Honestly it surprises me I've done it on the first date with others but that's because I don't care about the relationship.
I don't wanna mess up ours." He kissed my head, tightning his grip around me.
"But this means a lot to me and I just want you to know that when the time comes, if it comes, that we do that I won't just pack up and leave afterwereds."
He rested one hand on the back of my neck and sighed. "I care about you too much for that."