To you who gave me life, no not the one who birthed me, but you who handed the seed to the woman who gave me life. You have been gone so long..
Why now do you think it’s okay to try to compel me into thinking that i'm a bad father. Why do you try to show me that you are better than me.
How can someone who hasn't seen their son in 16 years be better than the man who sits outside those cement walls with his son.
For you to try belittle me is honestly so baffeling that im now lost.
My brain filled with the thought that I have turned into the monster you turned into kills me to my core and destroys my soul. I will become a father like my step father.
Sure i'm not off to a good start but I can tell you now the man you see now and the man you will see 5 to 10 years will blow your mind.
For you father the thought of you will be destroyed when you exit those walls and see the man who was created by a single mother.
I will prove to you that I never needed you, that I never need to learn from you. I will create the a legacy that you gave up on. I will turn into the everything you couldn't become.
I write this to you because you need to see what you gave up on and what you missed out on. I promise that end of each everyday I will become a better man that you could possible could be come.
You are scum and when I stand above you and show you what a father truly is I hope you fall to your knees in regret. I hope you learn from me and see what you could have become.
At the end of the day I know I will never be the monster you are I will become the man who slayed the monster who's shadow I stand in.
Then will the light truly shine and I will finally accomplish my one true goal.
I cant fully block you from my life though, cause that wouldn't make me any different from you,
but what you did was help me see the difference between the man you have become to the man I will become. Thank you for this and I will forever be grateful.
Now the memory you rest in peace and see what is truly to come.
The lost soul you left behind.