I've always said that I attract people who tell me their life story, or who have problems and went to confide in me.
I was starting to think that maybe it's the opposite, that maybe I gravitate towards people that have a certain darkness within them or sadness.
And I feel that it's a constant comfort to feel that darkness is nearby or is keeping me company at all times. I don't know what the darkness is.
Because I don't like suffering and I actively fight it in my waking life,
but there's something comforting in the saddest parts of life maybe it's as simple as knowing there's nowhere to go but up.
Or maybe it's just another part of me that I don't know as well that pulls for the bad while the part that I know of myself is fighting for the good.
I think that's part of why it feels so satisfying to paint dark things and to express that side of reality that's not ideal, in art – the indescribable, the unknown, the scary