It would be super fucking cool to not have a toxic ass mother that makes me feel like shit.
If I could have a dollar for every time my mother has done an inexcusable thing she never apologized for, I’d literally be able to pay for college!!!!
Lets attempt to round up the worst, at 14 when I told her I wanted to kill myself she said “go ahead,
” at 15 she said “if I had a daughter that could keep her legs closed this wouldn’t be a problem,” she has told me “not only do I not want you here, I don’t need you here,
” slapped me on my 18th birthday because I didn’t want to have much with her (on my ear which had an ear infection that I had seen a doctor for that morning),
texts me and asks me while I’m at work if I’m moving out knowing I have super bad anxiety and I had to call her an explain to her that this is not the time or place,
growing up anytime she was mad she’d shit talk me on the phone to my sister or relatives in the living room where I could here, god the list just fucking goes on.
Why do I think she’s going to change I don’t fucking understand why I am like this.
Why do I want her to love me so fucking bad??? Why does she think it’s okay to do this shit??? When the fuck will the problems she’s caused me to have go away??? FUCK EVERYTHING