I hope I love somebody else. This cross love between two worlds is killing me. I can’t handle it much longer. “Make up your mind.” “Choose.
” “Pick up the pace!” “You’re loosing them!” My brain yells at me. I’m trying, trying so hard to figure this out. In trying so hARD!!! ---Maybe I already know….
Maybe my mind refuses to let me know who it is. Maybe I’ve already choosen. Maybe it’s 🥀🥀🥀Maybe it’s my bubblegum.Maybe it’s a mystery person. Or maybe it’s no one.
Maybe I don’t know what I want because my mind doesn’t want to choose. But I want it to.
I want to know who it is, I need to know who it is! I can’t just leave them behind like dirt, I HAVE to choose……. this is so difficult. I hope they know I’m sorry.
I hope they know I don’t mean to hurt them. I hope they know I’m not scared to kiss them. I hope they know I’m not that way anymore. And I hope they both know I’m fighting so hard for them.