I am beyond stressed right now.
A bunch of people at my work are going back to school soon, so they hired a bunch of new people to replace them. However, they are now training those people and cut everyone’s hours back.
My paycheck tomorrow is only $359, which is half of what it should be.
I still haven’t paid my interstate transfer fee of $125, which is what allowed me to leave the Indiana DOC and come back home to PA. I also need to get caught up on my parole fees, which is $60.
I owe $80 for my gym membership, which is a necessity for me, because working out is the only stress reliever that helps me fight drug cravings and emotional hate towards myself.
Then my mom is guilt tripping me and making me feel like a terrible human being because I wont pay off her debt for her.
Our water is shut off because she owes $600, but what I dont understand is how she makes way more money than me, and how her and my dad let a bill get that far out of hand.
Then she says that I need to pay the phone bill, because shes told me she couldnt afford to add my phone and blahblah. So i offered to pay my portion of the bill because thats all I can afford….
and she fucking FLIPS on me saying that if I cant pay it, then I dont deserve to have a phone. But I dont understand…. I can afford my half, you cannot afford yours.
So technically you should be the one without a phone.
Like she makes me feel bad because I wont take responsibility for paying her shit, when I have my own shit to worry about.
If I dont take care of my shit, Ill never be able to get back out on my own again. Its constant back and forth emotional whiplash and it hits hard for me. My mom has done this my whole life.
It was hard for me to deal with her shit high, let alone now that Im sober.