I had sex dreams about R all of last night.
We didn’t have sex, but his hands were on me, and I liked how they felt, and we were in the delicious stage where you know it will happen, it’s only a matter of time.
In waking life, I am hesitant. He is C’s roommate, so doing anything with him officially closes the C door…aaand makes me look like a slut? Not that I really care.
I just don’t want to look desperate. R is cute and he can sass me, which I like. We have nice verbal spar, which C and I never had. He’s outdoorsy and active, but not to the extent that C is.
This is ultimately just another bad idea, another path to nowhere, since I can’t have casual sex and R has already talked about not wanting anything serious right now.
I don’t want anything serious wth him I tell myself bt the other part of myself knows I’ll act differently later.