to go into more detail, in 4th grade there were a lot of people in my class who were really awesome talented people. i kept comparing myself and how i could never be as amazing as them.
i then realized every other girl at the school was thin and skinny. none of them were chubbier like me. i was desperate to fit so i could finally be accepted, and began changing.
i changed my personality and didn’t eat as much so i could become thinner. i also realized my drawings were terrible compared to them, and i wanted to stop. and i almost did. but i continued.
i don’t know why i did, but i did. and i’m glad i did. that year was one of the worst times in my life, also because of some personal things that were going on.
i didn’t know what to do with myself and almost lost all hope. i don’t know what motivated me to keep going, i really don’t, but whatever it was i’m glad it happened.