Today I missed you for a little while. I thought about our time together. In the moment, 14 months seemed like an eternity but looking back, it wasn’t much at all.
You were the second person I’ve fell in love with; but i fell for you so hard and fast. The beginning was so beautiful and almost poetic. You were so nice, so kind and treated me so good.
I’m not sure where we went wrong, but I know I tried to act like nothing happened. I wanted us to always be so happy and in love. I gave up so much for you.
I gave up time, energy, happiness, even friends. I gave up my very best friend to call you mine. Little didn’t I know you’d turn around and chose her over me again and again.
Sometimes I have to talk myself out of messaging you and asking, “Is this what you wanted? Use me to get to her? Was that your plan? You had to love me at some point, right?
” Sometimes I even want you to come back saying it was all a mistake, and leaving me was the worse thing you could’ve done.
What’s even worse is I don’t know if I could stop myself from falling into your arms, once more. I hate that I still have these feelings for you. Maybe one day they’ll go away.
Maybe one day I can truly be happy without you.