A lot can happen in 24 hours. Yesterday I was wishing my wife a happy birthday. Today I’m standing over her lifeless body wondering what to do.
Yesterday I told my wife I’d always be there for her. Today I’m holding the note in my hands, hoping she didn’t do it because of me.
Yesterday I made love to her. Today I’m laying on the ground in a puddle of my own tears.
Yesterday I was happy. Today I’m afraid. I’m afraid that the same thing will happen to me. I’m afraid I’ll take my life in the same way she took hers.
I’m afraid of how much I am dying to see her again.
Yesterday was the best day of my life, today I’m not able to live without her. Today I’m cradling her head in my lap, whispering “see you soon” into her ear. Today I’m sorry.
I am so, so sorry.