7/27/16 is the day that changed my life.short of breath all week and experiencing convulsions,i was convinced these were symptoms of withdrawal;i was an alcoholic, and i was trying to escape.
i was more overweight and unhealthy as ever.rushed to the E.R. and immediately put on oxygen,it was eventually concluded to be a pulmonary embolism;i had a blood clot in my lung. and it was severe.
had we waited any longer, i’d have been dead.holed up in the ICU for over a week and sent home on bloodthinners;these bloodthinners nearly killed me…twice.
i became deathly anemic with hemoglobin levels of 3.7(normal range 12-17).between two hospital stays, i had 16 blood transfusions.my body was weak. i was bedridden for months.
i had to ask unthinkable things of my love.i could not even imagine ever getting better.i wished death upon myself so long.but then things started changing for me.
i had an awesome support system of nurses and physical therapists,my plethora of pills started fixing things, and shit began to change.
i am still slightly anemic, i have iron and Vitamin D deficiencies, among others,but i am getting stronger every day.i am nearing 9 months of sobriety.10 months free of cigarettes.
i am taking care of myself better than i ever have.i have lost so much weight i am not even sure of the numbers.this experience has taught me so much, and has changed me.
i am a completely different person.i am well physically and mentally.i am finally happy.
July 27th, 2016 is the day i almost died, but it is the day that started me on my path toward finally starting to live.