I’m learning to live in the silence. To be peaceful and calm. To unknot the rock of anxiety that weighs in my stomach.
To hush the demons that whisper my fears into my ears without senseless background noise. I am learning to find peace. Sitting in my chair beneath the trees.
In the quiet of the morning and the twilight of the eve. In my safe nook or laying beneath my sheets. letting go of my fear which makes it hard to breathe. I am learning patience.
with those who cannot see or choose that’s how they will be. With myself for all my faults and my angry hate filled thoughts.
With time when it seems to stand still and when it will never cease moving. I am learning love. Love of all things. Things that are misunderstood at the very first look.
I am learning that I too deserve love. That sometimes the most loving thing you can do is to sacrifice a piece of yourself. I’m learning to see. The nuances of the patterns.
The bright and the dark. The different levels and behaviors and the effects they have. I’m learning to speak. To ask for things I need. To lay my heart and soul out for everyone else to see.
To release the words in my throat and bask in their heat. I’m learning. So late in life and I’m learning all these intricacies. Just now learning how to speak… Please be patient with me.
Please keep loving me. Please stay as good as you are to me…@cellinheim