Prompt: What’s the biggest risk you’d like to take — but haven’t been able to? What would have to happen to make you comfortable taking it?
I think that the biggest risk I’d really like to take is to live strictly how I want to.I mean… Completely unapologetic living. That’s the dream.
Sometimes, I daydream about doing whatever it is I want, however I want to, and moving through life in a way that shapes it how I want.
I’ll close my eyes and dream about waking up every morning, writing for a few hours, and running around my city — or cities!
— talking to interesting people, exchanging, connecting, and immortalizing. I’ll dream about having a home studio where all sorts of creative projects take shape.
I’ll dream about doing all of this, every single day, in every waking moment —Regardless of what anyone else has to say.
I’ll be the first to admit that I let other people’s judgment get in the way of how I live my life; at least I’m keen enough to be aware that it isn’t a good thing.
But in almost every way… I live in shackles.
I really want to do this or that, but I don’t, because someone will get offended, or someone will get upset, or someone just might never talk to me again.
In my dreams, I am much more alone than in real life, but also much more happy.In my dreams, I understand that I can’t let those around me put a damper on my life, and I live accordingly.
My relationships with many people turn either cold or sour, and I make peace with that, as fast as I accept the freedom that comes with that reality.
The voices in my life are lesser, but the acceptance is stronger. I live around people who understand why I make the choices that I do, who support them, and who even encourage them.
In my wildest dreams, I find a way to turn what I want to do, into what I have to do. I don’t try to justify the way I live my life to people anymore.
I stop wanting to live a certain way, and after burning bridges and cutting ties, I actively do. In my dreams, I’m happy and never anxious about it.
I know that I’m deserving of it, and I don’t entertain thoughts of the opposite.
I explore the things that I really want to do, the things I’ve thought of doing; even the things I didn’t think I’d like.In my dreams, I live like there’s no tomorrow.
The only person accountable for my happiness is myself, and I’m committed to it like it’s my job — because it is. Everyone else be damned.But that’s just in my dreams.For now.
I’ll just have to wake up differently, one day…