Just a little bit longer they say, it will totally get better, its just a phase. NO.
I'm going through these motions trying to drown out all my emotions am I going to be sad today? Will I smile ? Will I actually laugh or will I cry silently in the bathroom stalls?
I'm not trying to be a disappointment I'm not trying to be different I'm not trying to make you like me either. I swear I'm just sad not depressed but I'm not sure anymore what that even means.