I remember being upstairs at my computer, I don’t recall exactly what I was doing, probably watching a show or playing a game. I had the notion to check on you.
I went downstairs to the cozy place where you tried to sleep.
I expected to find you panting like you had been for a while, but instead there you were… With an empty stare and tongue hanging out. Unmoving. Limp.
I felt an uncontainable numbness wanting to burst from within the pit of my stomach. I couldn’t feel anything else. I wrapped your body in a towel and put you in a basket.
I didn’t want to look at you. I made a phone call and told my mother you were gone, she lost it and sobbed. I hung up. I tried to distract myself and eventually you receded in my mind.
But every time I think of you I see that horrible lifeless stare as clear as the first. It’s all I remember of you now. I want to forget you.