I would like to tell you how you've broken my heart. Shattered completely. I would love to tell you that I'm done, that I can't deal with you anymore.
I want to scream at you in lieu of not being able to undo all of the pain and heartache. I want to replace you with something better - but I know that I have no other options.
Sure we've had some good memories but I feel like we've gotten into a rut, like I've just chosen you because it's easier that way.
Things really haven't been good between us for some time now, that's for sure. I feel like I've just settled into a routine with you. You don't excite me anymore.
I feel like your hostage, because even throughout all of this torment I still love you. I never want to let you go.
Even though I fantasize about leaving you all of the time, I don't think I could really follow through with it.
I'd be lying if I told myself it didn't seem tempting to part ways at certain points.
I hope we can fix things but I don't know how, I'm just in over my head at this point.
I keep hoping that you'll do something for me to help me stop feeling so hopeless but nothing ever seems to change.
I think I could hold on forever for you, but I really wish I didn't have to.
I just need to know that you're worth it, that what I'm doing isn't going to just tear me apart inside by choosing you instead of leaving you.
I want you to tell me that this is just a rough patch. I know you can't make promises like that and things are what they are.
So I'll just sit and pray that one day things between us are wonderful again.