I had everything I ever wanted… and everything I ever wanted I already had: flourishing career, dashing boyfriend, amazing friends that supported me through thick and thin,
the perfect gay best friend, three iPhones that I didn’t even use that much… I had everything!
Or so I thought.
No matter how good you get, there’s always Hell when you come. back.down.
My love for him was bulletproof until he pulled the trigger between my eyes, and shot me. I just want to say I’m sorry. I’m sorry for giving you a reason to leave… a reason to shoot me dead.
I asked you to hold me but you let me go.
And now you watch me burn but I don’t want the flames to touch you because I’m the one who deserves to go to Hell, not you, and I will absolutely never drag you down with me.
All I ever saw in the mirror were the demons in my head but with you, I learnt to forget the gay monster living inside of me – unfortunately,
my demons learned how to swim and with them it felt like taking one last breath under water.
Read the rest via the link in the description!